What We Like Best..

I don't know if any of you know the clothes shop republic?
Well, anyway i just think their model on the site is such a thinspiration, she's lovely, i thought i'd share it with you girls ;)

(There's quite a few, i scoured most of the clothes for pictures of the few she models!)

Her collar bones are so protrudring and i just think she has amazing arms and cheekbones.

i love her, she's gorgeous. haha..

oh yeah! hope thanksgiving hasn't been too much of a struggle for all your ladies :/

i know it's hard, and i'm so glad we don't have it in the UK

Stay strong though girls.

x

Good Times

I  can't explain what's changed, it just seems overnight i feel so strong and in control of myself. it's amazing, i feel good, this is the start of a big lose.
i was arguing with my mum about stupid stuff today, and i said 'i hate all my clothes' i know it sounds more patehtic on here, but who cares for lengthy conversations!
anyways, she goes: 'it doesn't matter what you buy, it's not the clothes, it's you. it's you you don't like, you're striving for something and i don't understand what it is'
gahh, she knows me so much better than i realise..
bit unnerving actually :|
then, i thought, well you know what?
i'll show you what i'm fucking striving for and i'm gonna reach.
4 weeks, come on.
weigh in friday D:

Intake was good today, i'm trying to tell myself that i can have up to 700 cals a day  -i know it's alot but i've started exercising more- as long as it's only either: fruit+veg, rice cakes or cereal.
nothing else, i'm satisfied with that.
i want to be tiiiiiiiny. the way i know i should, can and will be!

Let's stay strong ladies.

You decide who you want to be
x

Hometime :)

Hi guys!

Feels like i've been away for ages :o

but this is just gonna be a quickie 'cause i'm in the middle of a load of college work i need to get done for tomorrow!

easily distracted ;)

don't think 'cause i haven't been here i haven't been catching up with all you lot, makes me sound boring actually.

nothing new to add, weight's the same as always.

that's definitely changing next week i'm determined.

..we'll see.

see you in skinny-land!

x

The beginning is always today.

I'm starting a fast for (atleast (hopefully)) the next 3 days now.
I'm hoping with alot of water, caffeine and a 40 cal hot chocolate on the night i will be able to do it.
I'm going shopping thursday aswell, so i wouldn't mind flattening my belly for that.
It would be amazing if anyone wanted to join?.. the support would be great.

My new thinspo vid :



It's the mind that makes the body.
x

Plan.

New Diet. Total Cals: 800

200 B: Green Tea + Cereal
170 S: Fruit + Cereal Bar
175 L: Soup + Rice Cake
130 S: Non-fat Yoghurt + Celery with Vinegar
75 D: Egg-white Omelette/Salad
50 S: (Low Cal)Hot chocolate/(Skinny)Latte/Tea/Coffee

Exercise. Total Cals: 500
100 M: 5 mins jogging + 100 jumping jacks + 5 mins jogging
400 N: 15 mins jogging + 200 jumping jacks + 100 squats + 100 crunches
          100 lunges + 100 leg lifts (each) + 200 arm circles.

New plan, and 800 cals a day seems too big to be considered as restricted to me, IDK, that list looks like alot of food to me. But i don't want to binge, i'm not that out-of-control sort of person and they are really depressing me. I hate myself when I do so my body's obviously telling me I'm doing something wrong.
We'll see how this goes, i need to lose 3 lbs a week if i'm gonna make 98lb by the christmas do. Obviously that won't be possible if my stomach keeps taking control of my mind!
It's still atleast 500 cals less than I need to be losing 2 pounds a week healthily and I'm burning off atleast 500 cals a day (when I'm not at the gym aswell) which will leave me at a total of 300 cals per day. I think i can do this, it feels like alot.

I've been watching alot of thinspiration videos again aswell and that's got me motivated.

Anyways, if i don't appear to be losing weight quick enough after a couple of weeks i'm just gonna fast- i will be in the double figures.

P.S. Thanks for everyone's comments, you're all so supportive it's amazing. I can't believe anybody would ever be interested in what i have to say.
Ohh ++ and a satsuma's like a really small orange btw ;) lol.

Don't do anything today that you will regret tomorrow.
x

Oh Dear,

I have a food baby.

Yes, i look about 6 months gone.

Do you know how babies are made children? That's right- fairycakes!

I feel disgusting and now pathetic 'cause as i'm sitting here writing this i've just burst out crying.

i can't do anything right, and that's just the things i want most.

God help me.

Results

Woo! Went shopping today.. usually very depressing! But a nice suprise had to buy all size 6s :) (US 2?)

So yeah that's all i needed to motivate me again, i think that's the best thing for making you wanna reach your goal- knowing that what you're doing is actually making a difference.

I've got another target for when i'm hoping to reach 98 lbs.. Christmas do on the 6th of Dec. And i wanna look real good= real skinny ;)

i know what i wanna wear but im gonna try/buy in 3 weeks if i've actually lost some weight. But that was enough to make me refuse dinner!

+++ my friend brought me round her bikini i'm borrowing for the holiday to try on and although i didn't want to see myself ..it atleast gave me an indication of how far i've got to go and not to give up 'cause i really don't have time to.

So, today i've had:

- Shredded wheat (uck, disgusting) : 150

- Satsuma : 15

- Low fat yoghurt : 115

- Cup'a'soup : 100 cals

-Cereal bar : 120

500 cals bang on. I'm doing my exercises lateron aswell and i worked out that that should burn around 250 cals.

Fridge pickers.. wear big knickers ;)
x

Kate <3

Now i  know Kate Moss was 'the waif' of the 90s but i still think she's an amazing thinspiration.
She looks gorgeous in the new YSL ad too..

She can be my themed thinspo while i'm here!

You did indeed ;)

Anyways, that's all i have to post. I'll update more when i'm not a fat, greedy slob who can resist food. Uck, i revolt myself.

+++ I came on my period for the first time in 5 months. Means i'm fat again.

6 weeks to the holiday so i really need to get a move on.

Speak when i'm skinny!

x

Now, there's not alot i like about my sixth-from.. or just colleges in general, apart from when our teahers away they dont get cover, we have to collect the work and do what we will with it.

that's why im home now instead of sitting in the classroom, blogging ;D

Bad intake today :| don't know what went on because i was feeling real motivated when i got up:

B- Half a Banana and green tea : 50 cals

L- Honey nut shredded wheat : 150 cals

Then i was making myself a vegetable wrap (wrap : 115 cals + cucumber and pepper : 30 cals with a drop of balsamic vinegar) so that was about 200 cals at the very maximum but as i was eating i felt unbelievably guilty.

like i was binging.

so i just kept saying to myself its fine, it isnt a binge its low cal.

but i couldnt help it and as ive said before when i think ive blown the diet for the day :( i just lose all determination.

CARROT CAKE, uck! i didn't even want it. obviously, and i wasnt atall hungry.

So today i ended up with about 800 cals, i know it could have been worse but i feel disguting and greeedy and out-of-control. i hate it so so much, i dont know whats wrong with me and even now i keep thinking i need something sweet so im sticking the kettle on and im having a low-cal (40) hot chocolate to get rid of the craving and im not touching another thing.

There's just one more thing, and i'm writing it in a different colour cause i know it TMO for some..

idk if anyone else gets this proble, but recently no matter what i eat 10/20 mins later it seems to go straight through me :s i know, i know its disgusting but its also a bit reassuring that my body feels it needs to rid itself of food - like a laxative effect? and its not like ive ever abused them in the past. Ha, i know im disgusting and you probably regret reading this but im confused!

Ive got work later on so it should be easy to not eat cause i dont like to eat after half 5/6ish so lets hope for better tomorrow. i've made a new plan for the upcoming week that im hoping to stick to, here..
I'm hoping it will help stop any binges and the different calorie allowance will hopefully keep tricking my metabolism.

MONDAY+TUESDAY TOTAL = 290 CALS



B: GREEN TEA – 0 CALS


S: 2x SATSUMA – 30 CALS


L: SKINNY LATTE+BANANA – 130 CALS


S: YOGHURT – 120 CALS


D: SALAD – 70 CALS


T: SKINNYCOW HOT.CHOC – 40






WEDNESDAY TOTAL = 600 CALS


B: GREEN TEA+CEREAL – 150 CALS


S: PEAR – 90 CALS


L: 2x NIMBLE AND BEANS – 250 CALS


S: YOGHURT – 120 CALS


D: CUP’A’SOUP - 90 CALS






THURSDAY TOTAL = 100 CALS


B: GREEN TEA


L: NORMAL TEA – 60 CALS


D: HOT CHOCOLATE – 40 CALS






FRIDAY (WEIGH IN!) TOTAL = 250 (-500) CALS


B: GREEN TEA – 0 CALS


S: 2x SATSUMA – 30 CALS


L: SKINNY LATTE+BANANA – 130 CALS


S: YOGHURT – 120 CALS


D: SALAD – 70 CALS


T: HOT.CHOC+CHOCOLATE BAR (ANY?!) – 250 CALS






SATURDAY+SUNDAY TOTAL = 600 CALS


B: GREEN TEA+CEREAL – 150 CALS


S: 2x SATSUMA+YOGHURT – 150 CALS


L: CUP’A’SOUP - 90 CALS


D: YOGHURT+SALAD (or) VEG. SOUP - 210 CAL

D'you guys think it will work?

Anyways, hope yous are all doing well.
Think thin x

Mannn

This whole not blogging thing is getting abit hard!
I did end up getting some DIGITAL scales sorted btw, but as far as the whole not posting 'til i'm 100lbs is looking doubtful.
HOWEVER i haven't weighed myself the last couple of days 'cause i don't want to until i know i'm closer to where i wanna be.
so it's not exactlyyy cheating, i doubt it but i potentially could in fact be at 100 lbs. i don't know why it's so hard though :s no matter what i do and how little i eat these days my scales loves 7st7. Gahh disgusting number.

but i felt more motivated when i was at work the other day ( clothes shop=lots of mirrors..and actually lots of walking thinspiration) i was staring at myself in the full-length in the changing rooms and just thought..
'why the fuck have i let myself look this much of a state. God, it's not hard'
So this weekend:
-hair coloured
-sunbeds!<3
-waxing (??)
-not eating.. i must stock up on the fags.

anyways don't think i havent been keeping up to date with all you skinny-minnies, shame that im too ashamed to post as much.

im back now anyway, ive broke my barrier and i,m still addicted.

so to everyone, lets get thinspired ;D

Keep trying girls, it will all be worth it in the end. The pain is nothing when you're flawless.

x