Now, there's not alot i like about my sixth-from.. or just colleges in general, apart from when our teahers away they dont get cover, we have to collect the work and do what we will with it.

that's why im home now instead of sitting in the classroom, blogging ;D

Bad intake today :| don't know what went on because i was feeling real motivated when i got up:

B- Half a Banana and green tea : 50 cals

L- Honey nut shredded wheat : 150 cals

Then i was making myself a vegetable wrap (wrap : 115 cals + cucumber and pepper : 30 cals with a drop of balsamic vinegar) so that was about 200 cals at the very maximum but as i was eating i felt unbelievably guilty.

like i was binging.

so i just kept saying to myself its fine, it isnt a binge its low cal.

but i couldnt help it and as ive said before when i think ive blown the diet for the day :( i just lose all determination.

CARROT CAKE, uck! i didn't even want it. obviously, and i wasnt atall hungry.

So today i ended up with about 800 cals, i know it could have been worse but i feel disguting and greeedy and out-of-control. i hate it so so much, i dont know whats wrong with me and even now i keep thinking i need something sweet so im sticking the kettle on and im having a low-cal (40) hot chocolate to get rid of the craving and im not touching another thing.

There's just one more thing, and i'm writing it in a different colour cause i know it TMO for some..

idk if anyone else gets this proble, but recently no matter what i eat 10/20 mins later it seems to go straight through me :s i know, i know its disgusting but its also a bit reassuring that my body feels it needs to rid itself of food - like a laxative effect? and its not like ive ever abused them in the past. Ha, i know im disgusting and you probably regret reading this but im confused!

Ive got work later on so it should be easy to not eat cause i dont like to eat after half 5/6ish so lets hope for better tomorrow. i've made a new plan for the upcoming week that im hoping to stick to, here..
I'm hoping it will help stop any binges and the different calorie allowance will hopefully keep tricking my metabolism.

MONDAY+TUESDAY TOTAL = 290 CALS



B: GREEN TEA – 0 CALS


S: 2x SATSUMA – 30 CALS


L: SKINNY LATTE+BANANA – 130 CALS


S: YOGHURT – 120 CALS


D: SALAD – 70 CALS


T: SKINNYCOW HOT.CHOC – 40






WEDNESDAY TOTAL = 600 CALS


B: GREEN TEA+CEREAL – 150 CALS


S: PEAR – 90 CALS


L: 2x NIMBLE AND BEANS – 250 CALS


S: YOGHURT – 120 CALS


D: CUP’A’SOUP - 90 CALS






THURSDAY TOTAL = 100 CALS


B: GREEN TEA


L: NORMAL TEA – 60 CALS


D: HOT CHOCOLATE – 40 CALS






FRIDAY (WEIGH IN!) TOTAL = 250 (-500) CALS


B: GREEN TEA – 0 CALS


S: 2x SATSUMA – 30 CALS


L: SKINNY LATTE+BANANA – 130 CALS


S: YOGHURT – 120 CALS


D: SALAD – 70 CALS


T: HOT.CHOC+CHOCOLATE BAR (ANY?!) – 250 CALS






SATURDAY+SUNDAY TOTAL = 600 CALS


B: GREEN TEA+CEREAL – 150 CALS


S: 2x SATSUMA+YOGHURT – 150 CALS


L: CUP’A’SOUP - 90 CALS


D: YOGHURT+SALAD (or) VEG. SOUP - 210 CAL

D'you guys think it will work?

Anyways, hope yous are all doing well.
Think thin x